The Osmond's make me cry! Not because they are so talented. Not because I was going to marry Jay, my sister was going to marry Donny and my youngest sister was going to marry Jimmy...in my dreams. Because they sing He Ain't Heavy He's my brother. I saw them on Oprah again the other day and I saw their anniversary show on PBS, and every time they make me cry! Since the unexpected death of my older brother Scott in December, lots of things make me cry. It hits me when I least expect it. My heart aches and I can't believe he's really gone. I have a soap opera mentality about the whole thing, like maybe it's not true and he'll just show up or call one of these days. It always happens on All My Children and General Hospital. I miss him terribly. He was there my whole life and taught me all kinds of stuff...good, bad, and ugly! He is still teaching me stuff. I've learned to have less fear and take more chances. I've learned more about the plan of salvation and the resurrection. I now know deep in my heart that they are true. My last email to Scott was titled He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother. I love you Scott!