Sunday, October 26, 2008

You Can Be Too Thin

Too thin

Healthy

Chubby


I find it sad and slightly disturbing when people say, "Wow you look amazing. What is your secret." First it makes me think that I must have looked bad 40 pounds ago. Secondly, I don't like the message this sends to my daughter.

A little background. Three years ago I had to start taking steroids to raise my blood pressure to help with my fainting condition. I gained 30 pounds. It wasn't fun. two years later I developed hypothyroidism. I was put on thyroid meds. The pounds started to melt away. A month later I broke my leg and the weight loss continued. Then I started to get sick. I call it unwanted bulimia. It wasn't pretty. I gave up dairy hoping that would help. It didn't. Soon I could only eat toast and crackers. I've had ulcers before, but this was different. I mentioned it to my Dr a couple of times. She prescribed acid reducers. When my weight got down to numbers I hadn't seen since High School, I went in for an exam. Blood tests revealed that I had h-pylori, an intestinal bacterial infection. The treatment was almost as bad as the disease. Seriously, you don't want this infection. I had to have a colonoscopy and endoscopy. The other part of the diagnostic puzzle is that I had become hyperthyroid. My meds have been adjusted, I can eat now and I am beginning to put on some weight. I never thought I would want to gain weight.

I wish instead of being complimented on my boney frame, I had been asked if I was sick. I have watched people I love battle eating disorders. Compliments fuel the beast. It isn't pretty.
Here's to being healthy no matter what the size.

27 comments:

Lauren in GA said...

Diane...seriously...not that you don't already know this, but you have been through so much. I simply cannot imagine.

I read the previous posts you linked...such unwanted experiences but you blogged about it with such hilarity...you are very clever and funny...but I still am sorry that you have been through so much.

This was a fantastic post. Especially, your being protective of your daughter.

tawnya said...

You know how I feel about this...and you rock!

Christie said...

AMEN, sister. You are amazing.

Paige said...

It is such a bummer how the underweight are overvalued. But I really like the 3 pic comparisons!

I'd rather be fat than endure what you have. good thing, because I am!

So what's your opinion on too rich?

linda said...

Regardless of being too thin or chubby as you mention...you are beautiful in all three pictures!

andrea said...

i second linda. you look great in all three pictures.
i wouldn't mind putting on a few pounds myself. hopefully when i start back at the gym, i can add some muscle. some curves would be nice, although my 9 year old stepdaughter will dislike that we can no longer share clothes.

this was well written.

Tristan said...

I am so sorry you have had so many health problems. That weight loss strategy does not sound fun!

I think you look beautiful no matter what you weigh. At least you can have fun eating to put the weight on!

ferntyler said...

insightful post - I remember the first time you said you wished you could eat, I laughed, but then when you kept shrinking I realized it wasn't funny at all! I'm glad you're getting better (at least on that front) :)

queenieweenie said...

I'm so glad you're starting to figure out what's wrong...you're right-you are way too thin!

Sunshine said...

Diane I am so glad you are getting better. This was a great post...thanks for sharing.

Annemarie said...

Ummm, I remember being one who said..."Have you called your doctor? Check to see if your meds need to be adjusted."

I'm glad things are on the "rise" and getting better. Maybe we'll start to look more like sisters.

This and That said...

Great post. Something I will try to remember more often as I have had struggles with wanting to be thinner. I had no idea you have gone thru so much. I knew about the leg, but nothing else.
You are so right to give Brynn the proper lessons about self esteem and self worth.

Robin said...

I like the way you explained this without any "boohoo poor me" attitude. You really are amazing. Thanks for letting us know what that H-gobbledygook thing was.

prowl - that is the word verfication I have to type.

gab said...

Diane! I just thought you were a lucky skinny lady...so sorry you have been plagued with so many illnesses. You don't deserve them.

I think you are gorgeous!

Hazen5 said...

Girl we have another thing in common...Hypothyroidism!!! But, I do have to admit, you still look beautiful in every picture at any weight!

D-dawg said...

Great 3 pictures- it really shows the difference. I can't believe how sick you have been. What a nightmare.

calibosmom said...

HERE HERE!!! You should be a spokeswoman for Dove! You are beautiful inside and out!!!

SavvyGirl said...

Thank you for sharing Diane! I love your protective ways towards Brynn. You are such a great mom!

Brigitta said...

Amen to that...we are a nation that is too obsessed with being wafey thin at whatever costs. I can't believe everything you've been through these past 3 years. You are brave, strong, beautiful and funny. Here's to better health for you in the future

Kim W said...

My SIL has hyperthyroidism and hates it when people tell her they wish they had it so they could be thin like her. Thank you for sharing what's going on with you. I appreciate your openness.

TravelinOma said...

I read once that we should thank our bodies for doing what they do (see, breathe, digest, eliminate toxins, whatever) and realize that every body is less than perfect. It's easy to focus on our own ills and envy the rest of the world. You have reminded me that I need to appreciate what I have and quit wishing for physical traits I don't have. You are so positive all the time in spite of your trials. I admire you.

Katie said...

We(Alan and me) love you and think you're awesome!!

Bridget said...

What a great post. It is such a pity that rail thin on TV makes looking anorexic so fun and glamorous. So sorry you have had so many health problems. Thanks for sharing.

wenderful said...

You just never know what's going on with other people. Thank for a good reminder not to be judgemental, especially when it comes to weight.pon

whittemore family said...

Amen sister! I hope things start to feel better for you. Thank you for sharing your story.

Jessica said...

Frankly, even the chubby's not so chubby. You are beautiful.

That was a great post...to remind people that the reasons and healthiness behind how each of us look is so varied, that we really cannot judge (others OR ourselves)!

Rae said...

You're right. Though I say I wish I could be a skinny-mini and never struggle with weight that is not a good example to my children. Healthy living is the key! You are beautiful in all of those pictures!